http://gurochan.net/dis Live RSS feed for http://gurochan.net/dis en'; http://gurochan.net/dis/res/12510.html#12528 >where a more normal guy would probably think about putting his dick in someone... I think there are probably quite a few of us here who could start a sentence like that.

Where a normal guy would probably think about putting his dick in someone, the first thought that comes to my mind is punching her in the face, hard, breaking her nose, knocking out her teeth, then maybe kicking her ribs in when she hits the ground, forcibly sodomizing her, and brutally pummeling her until she's unconscious or dead.

I don't have such thoughts when I see people in person, so there's no opportunity to suddenly "lose control", and I'm too much of a "play it safe" sort of person to do it premeditatively, even if I have fantasized about doing it to prostitutes.

>I generally hate people, probably because I'm afraid of people. Same here. I've also done that same "stalking" thing.

On another note, this thread reminds me of the horror novel Succulent Prey by the author Wrath James White. A good read, IMO. It's about a young man struggling with his growing cannibalistic urges.

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and where are you from, seeing as how you normally need a proxy?

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I could never bring myself to actually hurt someone intentionally. Unfortunately, society has succeeded in training me very well - I have all sorts of unconscious mental blocks in place.

But!

That didn't keep me from randomly thinking about what it would be like to grab the nearest pencil and jam it into the base of someone's skull all the time back in high school, just because I was looking at the back of their head from the seat behind. Or taking a knife and slicing through a friend's neck.

I would never actually follow through on it - again, the mental blocks - but I get those kinds of fantasies all the time.

I don't know. I always just kind of figured it was "normal" and just another one of those things that people don't discuss out loud out of fear of being called a psychopath.

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Read it. Can only bring myself to care on the most basic of levels. Like, "Oh, that's a shame." And then just turn really curious about what sort of "disfigured" he is, now.

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]]> http://gurochan.net/dis/res/12507.html#12523 lucky this is one of the few fetish websites I don't need a proxy to get onto.

*crosses fingers*

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Anyway, I'm still glad to see you're doing better, and I hope you can continue to do so.

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Think about this. Why to you not do it? Clearly there's something there you can take comfort in.

For me, I know that I'll be unlikely to get away with it, unable to handle prison food, and if they don't want to die I'd find it immoral, so I might feel some remorse maybe. I also don't want to be separated from my girl by iron bars and I've made a promise to her not to kill unless she says it's okay, which she will not do so long as there's a shred of possibility of me getting caught.

You might have other reasons. Some people have a moral or religious problem with killing. Understanding for yourself why you aren't killing anyone can give you the comfort of knowing that you're not going to kill.

I do intend on trying some of that human flavored tofu I've heard of, if I can find some somewhere though...

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And I'd imagine you guys understand how you eventually start to need something heavier...

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Me too. I never thought about what it meant for someone's head to be cut off before I saw it in a video game. I played the girl in Time Killers - after I lost to the computer, there was a close-up of her bloody neck stump. That stuck with me - seeing the neck hole, kind of wanting to fuck it.

In that game you could cut off arms and heads. In its sequel, you could cut off arms, heads, and even cut off everything below the waist to leave the character sitting on a pile of their own guts (pictured). And it was on.

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